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What a difference a year makes - #23
2009: As I was embarking on a career as writer, we were having the most difficult year of our lives. I was gaining clients slowly but surely and transitioning from one career to another. I was thrilled for the opportunities to write that came my way professionally but I found my desire to write for just the sake of writing - on my blog - waning. I hardly wrote at all on Upside Down Cats at all and that was sad because it was such a creative and cathartic outlet for me. Oh, part of me wanted to - and wanted to want to - but I found I just couldn't. I felt trapped in a mindset that wouldn't let me express myself with my words.
I now believe it was because I was afraid of expressing what I was feeling in the written word. Like I wrote yesterday, when concepts get transferred into the "writing" side of my brain, they become real. I didn't want 2009 to be any more real than it was.
2010: It has been a whirlwind of a year in many ways. I write for clients nearly every day and that is very satisfying. For a while I was struggling to learn time management for my new career so I literally didn't have time to write recreationally. Now, however, even though I'm busier than ever, I can and do find time to blog.
I think that I find the time now because life is more balanced for me. I don't fear having it all be real - in fact I welcome it. I am so glad to have my pleasure writing returned to me. It keeps me sane, fulfills my spirit and makes me feel like I am fully experiencing my life.