NaBloPoMo '10 - What a difference a year makes - #20

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What a difference a year makes - #20

2009: Under normal circumstances, I am an optimistic and motivated person. My overall enthusiasm suffered last year, however, as I struggled to just make it from one day to the next. I felt beaten down every day and it seemed no matter what I did, I couldn't catch a break.

On every front, fate was conspiring against me - at least that's how it seemed. After a while it became difficult to get excited about anything because I was so convinced that it would only result in more disappointment. It felt like the black cloud would never pass. In fact, it felt like the part of me who could try had died.

2010: This year has been much easier on my motivation. I try and sometimes I win. I make an effort and it doesn't fall apart. In short, the black cloud at long last has passed. My enthusiasm has returned because it finally seems worth taking the risk.

Overall outlook is such an important aspect to living a life rather than just existing. I feel so blessed to have my hopeful, optimistic self back. I missed me.